The Bulls of Bashan
Many years ago, I was working in an office with a “gang of bullies”. There were several people there who wielded more power than they should have been able to, and they bullied me—they created a hostile work environment for me. The owner of the company was a laissez-faire kind of manager, and he would regularly turn a blind eye to the rude and unprofessional behavior of the employees, making it difficult for me as I was in customer service; I was required to maintain a positive, cheerful, helpful and professional attitude with the clients.
I was going through a particularly painful time with these people. It was making me very discouraged and unhappy. One night I had a dream that I was entering a huge concert-type hall with red carpet, a wide open space and high ceilings. As I walked in there were black bulls sleeping all over the carpeted floor, and I knew I need to get to the staircase. I was tippy-toeing around them so as not to wake them up. As I headed up the staircase, they woke up and started chasing me. I realized that I was carrying my mother’s tiny chihuahua, and I was having a hard time grabbing the stair rail and holding the dog at the same time while running up the stairs, but I knew I couldn’t let go of that precious little dog. I looked behind me into the face of one of the bulls and the bull had the face of an evil, angry, demonic-looking being with curly horns pointing toward me. It was trying to scare me, but it couldn’t touch me. I ran up the stairs trying to escape and opened a door only to see that I was on the ledge of the building and the ground was about three stories down. I felt dizzy and I screamed “Jesus!!!” as loud as I could and I woke up.
I got up, started getting ready for work, but paused to ask the Lord what the dream meant, and this is what He said:
My gifts and callings are irrevocable. You have been gifted with a faith and trust that is unshakeable. Remember that when the earthquakes come to shake you. Stand firm, stand fast, watch the Glory of the Lord –He is mighty to save. The bulls, (the bullies at work) the demons, will try to get you and scare you, but they cannot. Cling to what is precious to you, (I was clinging to the dog, and I think the dog represents the one who is precious and loyal to me – Jesus) to what you love and never let it go. Trust in Jesus, you don’t need to grip or hold on to anything else. The name of Jesus is powerful to save. There will be uphill battles (the stairs), but I am there through them all close to your heart (the dog I was holding was close to my heart). Keep your confidence in me.
I was still very down about my work situation, and I told the Lord, “Ok, I’ll try to remember this.” I sat down to finish putting on my makeup, and I heard, “Bulls of Bashan!” My heart started racing and I ran to the computer to search it. I knew it was in the Bible, but I couldn’t remember where. Psalm 22 came up:
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from my cries of anguish?
2 My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, but I find no rest.
3 Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One;
you are the one Israel praises.
4 In you our ancestors put their trust;
they trusted and you delivered them.
5 To you they cried out and were saved;
in you they trusted and were not put to shame.
6 But I am a worm and not a man,
scorned by everyone, despised by the people.
7 All who see me mock me;
they hurl insults, shaking their heads.
8 “He trusts in the Lord,” they say,
“let the Lord rescue him.
Let him deliver him,
since he delights in him.”
9 Yet you brought me out of the womb;
you made me trust in you, even at my mother’s breast.
10 From birth I was cast on you;
from my mother’s womb you have been my God.
11 Do not be far from me,
for trouble is near
and there is no one to help.
12 Many bulls surround me;
strong bulls of Bashan encircle me.
13 Roaring lions that tear their prey
open their mouths wide against me.
14 I am poured out like water,
and all my bones are out of joint.
My heart has turned to wax;
it has melted within me.
15 My mouth is dried up like a potsherd,
and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth;
you lay me in the dust of death.
16 Dogs surround me,
a pack of villains encircles me;
they pierce my hands and my feet.
17 All my bones are on display;
people stare and gloat over me.
18 They divide my clothes among them
and cast lots for my garment.
19 But you, Lord, do not be far from me.
You are my strength; come quickly to help me.
20 Deliver me from the sword,
my precious life from the power of the dogs.
21 Rescue me from the mouth of the lions;
save me from the horns of the wild oxen.
22 I will declare your name to my people;
in the assembly I will praise you.
23 You who fear the Lord, praise him!
All you descendants of Jacob, honor him!
Revere him, all you descendants of Israel!
24 For he has not despised or scorned
the suffering of the afflicted one;
he has not hidden his face from him
but has listened to his cry for help.
25 From you comes the theme of my praise in the great assembly;
before those who fear you I will fulfill my vows.
26 The poor will eat and be satisfied;
those who seek the Lord will praise him—
may your hearts live forever!
27 All the ends of the earth
will remember and turn to the Lord,
and all the families of the nations
will bow down before him,
28 for dominion belongs to the Lord
and he rules over the nations.
29 All the rich of the earth will feast and worship;
all who go down to the dust will kneel before him—
those who cannot keep themselves alive.
30 Posterity will serve him;
future generations will be told about the Lord.
31 They will proclaim his righteousness,
declaring to a people yet unborn:
He has done it!
There were so many phrases that reminded me so much of my situation at work as well as the dream. I was so touched that the Lord saw my situation and cared enough to make sure I read this Psalm. His love is amazing. I did feel encouraged after I read this. And eventually all the bullies were either fired or left the company.